Somehow I wish you are here ...

All I want is someone who can listen to me.
Something is missing.

It's just another day to MONDAY! ._.

Did some econs in the morning and I really hate it. All the different market structures. So many and all the graphs are confusing me already. And worst was that I found out my article was 1995 and only recent articles can be used. Well done. I've to search for new article.

I'm so in ''love'' with school.

Gotta clear all these pile of work so that I can spend tml working on the analysis of articles coz I need factiva in order to find articles. I just cannot find any suitable ones online.



Oh ya. My CATS presentation was on Friday and that was also our last lesson. :D Happy and abit sad la. But had loads of fun working with these bunch of people. Those Saturdays we spend at atrium & outside. Wheeeee we gonna choose the same IS slot if possible. Yeah my meimei Xuanfang~

Went for S&W. Was pretty fun. Melvin din come so the guy from DS took us. He kept repeating very good and made us had a good laugh. Damn hilarious when me & belle were dancing the wrong steps. LOL!

Oh ya, there's also filming of the HEYGorgeous at the atrium. And Congrats Angelia who emerge as the Flower.

It's also SHUMAN's b'day that day.
HAPPY 17th B'DAY sweetie pie. ['',]

!@#$%^&*

ALRIGHT! Back to work.

Note to self:
- MIEC Feb 2007 paper
- Oligopoly tutorial
- Correlation & Regression tutorial
- MIEC artice analysis

Bye! =D

CAREBEARS unite :D

Had OB lecture yesterday morning and we pon CIP lecture coz it's way way too boring. Had pbl presentation, kinda screwed up but since it's over, then forget it. Worst part of the day came. Really feel very angry when people dun bother to pick up your calls & reply sms. ): Mood was ruined and..

Savers of the day; CS and elycia. So was really madness laughing n catching up w 'em. They even tried to physco me not to go for stats tutorial. But I din pon of course. So the short tutorial ended and I went to find em. They were playing some lame games and elycia was so hooked to it. So dat cs just act accidentally hit the switch and ta daa, the whole screen gone. So off we bused to JE.

It was total madness when we keep on laughing on the bus.

Had dinner at some coffee shop. Pop over to JEC to take neoprints. WHEEEEEEEE. Been very long since we took neos tgt. And they took it w/o me some time ago. ): Oh well nvm, since we took already. We just pratically hog on to the machine for quite sometime, hugging and posing. CAREBEARS reunite! Had a fun time decorating it and stupid ah soon just suck at it. And there's one shot whereby ah soon is like a pervert. Closing his eyes while all of us hugged together. Lol!

Sat at Mac, making noise and trying to make Elycia laugh. She did not really laugh but end up, we 2 laughed like some mad people who just got madcowdisease. So went off at 8plus. Ah soon was so nice that he acc me to take 99 instead of 98. We waited like 1234254679768 million of years. While waiting, we just continue the MADNESS. He loves to act as carebear and imitate the voice. Damn funny. Bringing in other characters like PO and his-all-time-favourite teletubbies. I shall make him do it again some other time. Peeps at the bus stop must be thinking why are this 2weirdos doing there. LOL!

p.s. AH soon, tag!!!.. always blog hopping here and there but never tag. BOos!













overdued-neos from qiuping's bday =)

It's Friday again. CATS presentation tml! and dance your way through the last working day of the week. Wheeeeee :D And yeah, belle: I've updated. My one entry is maybe 50posts of urs. =P

Many people walk in and out of your life.

FRIENDS.

Who will be the last few or one standing by?

Will it be you? Or maybe not.

Back for updates! Was feeling very wore out for the past few days and it was as if I am racing against time. It was really madness having to sleep at wee hours when many are soundly asleep. My eye bags are getting out of control.

Sunday night:

Guess what, I slack the whole weekends with the mindset to study for sat and sun noon. The determination just wasn’t strong enough to pull me off to get me settling down for next’s day stats. So I only started practicing the questions at night. Watching the hours passed and it was freaking 3am and I still confuse with sampling dist. Did few tutorial questions and I was chased to bed. Due to the fact if having to wake at 6plus ltr for school. At that point of time, I wasn’t tired at all. But still I slept.

Mon

Woke up at 6plus and I got severe headache. Just so pain till the extent that I almost din went school. Reached school damn early. The bus is just so fast and zooooooooom… I reached at ard 8.25. So I waited for belle and val to reach. Devon also reached very early so he came over and wait for them. I wasn’t myself today. As in my behavior was quite hilarious. Did some silly acts. Ok only those who know will get what I am talking abt. =/ my brain like not functioning for the day.

During CIP, Mr Chee is not happy with us about the progress of our pbl case. So we decided to meet up the next day and work on it. Since most of the projects on hands were done.

Had stats test at 5pm. And bused home with buddy coz she came all the way from TJ to meet me. =)

Happy birthday to Joshua! The npcc dude. Heh was too busy and forgot to drop you an sms. But it’s the thought that counts (: funky seventeen.

Tue

Met val and belle for breakfast! At KAP’s mac! Woots. Hotcakessssss and hashbrown. =) took pictures with hamburglar & Ronald!

Haha. We were late coz Joshua reached already. =/ but devon was later. We got into a vacant room and start doing our elearning stuffs first. The guys found sunzi vacant so we shifted there. 10 seaters. Got chased out after an hour or so. And we got into another room. Got chased out again after an hour again. Gave up the thoughts of rooms so we went level 3 for tables. We bumped into ernie and so we just settle there to do our project.

Got the proposal done, just need all the details in. Website was done by devon, credits to him. Powerpoint slides in progress. Left school only at 8plus at night. WHOA my first time staying in sch till so late. Brain was quite dead after a long day but still…

Spent some time doing stats but somehow it was way too hard. But managed to get the gist of it after quite some time..

Wed

Got back stats result. He was marking our papers when we reached. Phew! Got 91mks. Could have got higher if not for the stupid q4a and the careless mistake of substituting the wrong value in 4c. Feel quite disappointed for not meeting my own expectations. Somehow I feel that the paper this time was too easy, I expected harder questions. It's like easier than the tutorial qns. I should have not spend too much time to study the night before.

Thurs

B comm. Short report test. Well just whack the paper. Lunched at clubhouse with ho and belle. Went to blk 50 to take a look at the building. =/

Bused home and slept for quite awhile. It was a great nap, feels more awake now. (:

Chatted with zhumimi online with another 20plus classmates. Not on casino but random topics. SIM and movies. Haha. She's quite a fun tutor. ['',]

Fri

Yeah it marks the end of the week =D Yeahness. Was late for 5min for CATS. Coz the lifts are all packed with sardines. Oh i mean human beings. Haha! Yup so was late and the mr sugar questioned and I said it's the lift. And almost tripped by the wire of the OHP. Gosh. Bad omen for Friday the 13. He suaned everyone who came late and using the lift as example. -.- So during class tried to up participation by asking QUESTIONS. He love students who ask many many questions.

Class end early and went to canteen. We had CUPCORNS! :) Met the rest of the DS peeps at atrium and went for s&w. Jive. Was made to dance in 3s. So damn paiseh but it was alright I guess. Cha Cha next. ): Horrible forgotten much of it and feels so weird coz hasn't been doing cha cha for quite some time. Next Melvin taught salsa. It is kinda fun. :D Twisting here and there. Had much fun at ds today.

That’s practically a summary of my whole week. Seems very busy yeah. But my time was fully utilized. So weekends is coming. Tutorials and assignments are piled up already. ): presentations..

x. pbl presentation
x. cats presentation
x. bcomm presentation
x. bstats tutorials [this week and next week's]
x. econs tutorial

shall work on them during the wkns. xC

and tml needa meet my MEOWmates for presentation next week. ;D

another oh-my-so-lengthy-entry :D

I hate hypocrites who act! Damn pissed off. I shall not entertain you any longer. I am sick and tired of all that. RAHHHHHHHHHHH~ xC

Those who know will act dunno.
Those who dunno will tend to act know.
How true is this.

Screen shot of my eportfolio for CIP. =D

Screwed up my skin. So I decided to change. How is it? Haha! Just randomly pick this since I have not much time. Still need to revise and practice stats.

Went out with buddy just now :D Stats seriously drive minds crazy. So went out for a walk and photostat my notes. And yah, at the printing shop, someone mistaken me as a staff there and ask me questions and i answered without hesitation. -.-''' I paused and looked at buddy, and realised I'm also not the staff, why did I answer? Then someone else came along after awhile and I almost answer again. Do I look like I'm part of them? Lol.

It feels good to go out with buddy :) Very relaxed and crappy as usual. Destressed. =) We're like fighting over agreeability. So she has to or MUST agree with whatever I say. Feel really touched by her, she told Guo Hao to do something for me although dunno if he will. But still love my buddy to bits and pieces. Such a sweet friend. <3 loves

GREEN DAY - yesterday and today. Live Earth DAY!! SAVE our trees and resources people! Let's love the earth by saving paper and using less plastic before all our resources deplenishes. xD Think buddy influenced me. She always ask me dun take plastic bag whenever I go buy stuffs. Haha! I will soon be the ambassador for saving n protecting society.

Ok shall end with random pictures of the day. Some are taken when I'm really bored.

The rainy morning
I feel like sleeping more
But still, I woke up

Slept for like less than 4hrs
Zoom off to np in zombie state to meet CATS mates at 9am

I was not late (for once) (:
My bad habit

Worked on the assignment that was due ytd
All did not do except one group

CATS definitely killed most of my brain cells >C
HOWEVER I love my CATS mates.
Nice people to work with and talk to =)

Yeah <3 HO xiao BELLE also.

Met Belle.
Forgetful girl who forgets to bring my stats notes ytd
So met up and off we went to lib to study
Did finish my eportfolio (:

Belle vandalised on the table!
Tsk tsk~ :D

Ernie came along.
He took like decades to photostat.

Is my mind suffering from mental block?
Stats somehow just can't keep me awake.

Did my etutorial for OB, 1question undone.
There's still econs & stats. & pbl research for biz.proposal.

Test on mon ):
No school for whole BA on tues :)
It's high class kopi time!
Thurs short report test :) sch ends early

My eyes are giving way.
Maybe I should sleep and wake up earlier to finish revising stats & complete all other unfinished work.

and I just realised it was 070707 !
very special and unique =]


=) I like it that way

It's near the end of the week which means weekend is coming. Somehow time just passed abit too fast. It's like I just had CATS & S&W last Friday, and I'm having it tml again. SLOW DOWN!!! x(

Was blogging till halfway and the electricity just cut. The screen black out and I thought what happen to my lappy. I thought it was spoilt. Damn stuffy and humid. But I still managed to have a soundly nap. Been ages since I took naps. And I'm always sleeping late these days.

Thanks to those peeps who tagged or actually talked to me. & CS who try to ask me to go to his church. Guess I won't go, free thinker (: Felt a lil better but somehow whenever I reached my max, the stress level just keep going higher. I cannot really think properly. =/ I will be just too tired to talk. So people around just needa bear with me. Seeing my split personalities. Can be like crazy now and sadded the next moment. So if you see my face like so sadded like that, maybe you can tell me a joke. If funny, maybe that will bring a smile on my face. If not, then that's sad.

And I really dunno how should I behave or react in some situation. Should i be lame and talk rubbish or just shut up? Just dun feel the same way when I'm with my buds. It can be quite uncomfortable when others dun really appreciate your jokes. Maybe my sense of humour is declining. Is quite hard to find a really v close friend in poly. As compared to friends in pri/sec where you spent 4/6years. Someone you really can clique and get along well. Maybe is just the beginning. So who wanna be my 1st bestie from poly. LOL! Come come~ Registration starts now! Limited vacancies. There are always friends, classmates around.. True friends are quite hard to come by. 3years, I believe there will certainly be one or two. Now only almost 3months. :)

It's really tiring to see the endless load of work piling and piling.

The list that goes on and on:
OB presentation
MIEC pairwork
Stats test on Mon (REVISE!!)
Stats tutorial/ presentation
OB etutorial
CIP eportfolio due Sun. No idea how to use that stupid tool.
CATS 6 thinking hat due tml!

Sometimes I just hope I can just throw all the work aside and sit there stone, no doing anything. However this is like only a wishful thinking of mine. Just wanna clear all asap. The work just get on my nerves at times.

Tuesday 03/07

Had OB presentation so had to dress in formal wear. It feels quite weird initially. Saw my primary school friend and she thought I was going to work -.-‘’’ But reached school, saw quite a lot of people also in formal wear so it feels rather ok. Met up my group and went to class. The presentation is so-so, but it’s always bored to listen to presentation so almost like no one really paying attention. Once again, I think i screwed up coz I din really interact with the rest, reading from the q-card. Well, now that it’s over. It feels good!

It was a HOT day for me coz I wore all black. Still need to walk all the way to LT45, all the way back at the engineering block. We learnt about t-table today. I was talking to val about is there coffee table. And that lecturer mention there’s t-table but no coffee table. Lol! Made me laugh like some madwoman. So our class had a special guest for econs. It was damn funny coz they used my lappy to present the answers. And Jiande’s msn keep popping up. Then my tutor was like going whoa who’s that. Then the guys sabo-ed ranald by changing their nick to ranald and had pop ups conversation.

Wednesday 04/07

Did not pon the lecture coz Beata’s card was with me. Attended the as-usual-boring lecture. I think do not really need to attend OB coz we can understand it on our own too. =x Had 4hrs break. Went to lib to do stats. Had lunch and continued with it till 3pm. I managed to do some questions. However still need to practice more for the upcoming test on mon. Shrugs. I hate MCQs. Deducted 12mks from there and 3mks from the answering part, so I got a lousy B for stats. Good that the final exam don’t have mcq.

Thursday 05/07

B comm. Day! Wheeee. It was a short day for me. Came up with Ho Xiao Belle during the report writting. It will be like so unfair if we just write one person's name so I came up with that. Sounds abit weird, it is a name for 3. Val's surname, my middle name and belle's.

Got 11.5/20 for my email test. Grrr forgot to write Subject. And the person who marked it was like stricter than my tutor. That person’s class was worst! As my tutor marked theirs. It is like so unfair. Awwww~

Just got to know some news which is really making me feel like so disappointed in that someone. Making use of friends & their trust. How evil can that person be. Grrrr..

Gotten some sleep and mug my way through at night. I do not want Bs anymore. B+/As are most welcome. =) Who on earth with the right mindset wants B or C? T_T

What a long entry. Maybe I will not be updating any long entries till... Not sure~ :D

Some random photos took when I went to get my formal wear w sis & on qiuping’s birthday.

HAPPY 19^th B’day QIUPING (:

"Winners are losers who got up and gave it one more try."
— Dennis DeYoung, songwriter and member of the pop rock band Styx (b. 1947)


"What does not destroy makes me stronger."
— Friedrich Nietzsche, German philosopher (1844-1900)


I guess that's life. So i will not let anything destroy me.

The world is a harsh and complex place to live in. Can i just disappear?
Disappointments set in from all directions; friends, family...

I had enough. I couldn't take it anymore. When he shouted those words at me, I just bang the door and left for school. Why is it always that the elders are always right and the younger one is always at fault. This is not the first time. It happened in the past, now and.. Future.. Who knows? I felt really devastated and my tears are just rolling in my eyes. I felt that sharp pain within me. But who can I confide in? I did not want to bother my friends so I kept it to myself. On the bus rides to school, just kept thinking about what had happened earlier. And I couldn't help it and teared. What is a home actually? I don't know how to answer this question. A complete family on the surface but a broken one in fact. Just a place to sleep in? I don't know. Do your family members really dote on their children? Perhaps there's exception. I no longer believe there's such thing as family warmth.

Foolish thoughts set in. Looking at those buildings, suicide came to mind. But I wouldn't commit suicide coz I know it's damn foolish. I wonder if anyone will cry for me when I'm gone one day. I hope nobody will grieve over it. Don't be upset.. Anyway I won't make any difference to this world. How I wish I'm never born in the first place... Can I just get away from all this shit or just vanish into the thin air and bid goodbye to the harsh reality.

I will try my best to keep life going..

When it is really too much to take...just letting out my frustrations.
I'm just a fool.

Ishi (extreme 2nd right), with his dancing partners SOUL "Ishi Lau Gek How, a member of the hip-hop dance group SOUL who shot to fame in Channel U’s SuperBand, was found dead in a car yesterday afternoon outside the National Stadium. The actual cause of death is still unknown, although the rumour now is that the 25-year-old committed suicide." - Taken from www.channelu.com.sg I am very stunned when I saw this news. i thought it was just rumours or jokes. Did not really expected the news to be true. Ishi's really good at dancing & singing,was part of Soul. Someone who is really talented and all. He perhaps felt very depressed then and decided to end his life. Not very sure but from the article I read, I think he should be feeling troubled or emotional. 'the night he died, his MSN had a message: ‘Goodbye to all of you’. He's a happy-go-lucky chap yet emotional guy. I believe everyone will have a weaker side of themself. But I feel that we must treasure our lives. No matter what, there will always be solutions and people around who can help. Youngsters should not take their lives away. And yeah Ishi is only 25years old. Yeah so do take note of such people who needs help before it's too late. Just hope he does rest in peace and be much more happier in the other side of the world.

It's already in the middle of the week already. Isn't that fast? I got to know my common test results.

[editted]
OB- 90% A
B.stats- B
CIP- B
MIEC- B
CATS- 78% (should be an A coz the mr sugar nv add in mks for the editted work -.-'')
B comm- ? C+

OB was very unexpected coz I thought I will do very badly. Always lack the confidence after doing the papers. According to Yixiang, i calculated and my gpa should be 3.2 or somewhere around there. So is it good or bad? Haha!:D I guess it's rather bad (at least to me)..


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E-learning for 2 of the modules. Actually there's no sch for me ytd but... PROJECTS!!! So still have to return to sch. No choice. OB and CIP. Met up 2 different grps in the same day. Was being entertained by Lynette & Roderick while I was with Devon Isabelle Joshua doing work at lvl 3. They started the web cam and loads of nonsense. But if not for that, I will have doze off doing the work. I was laughing at the muscles and think they also laughing like mad.


I'M VERY PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THAT OB PROJECT IS DONE! Spent the whole night doing up the slides and discussing with the members. My eyes were glued to the lappy since I reach home at 7pm and only managed to complete everything at 12plus midnight. Sent Lynette for editing and she slept at 4plus? Awww thanks loads lyn! Everything was finalized.

• OB project
• PBL case
• MIEC pairwork

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Bump into 2 juniors, Suan Joo & Hilary, ytd at JP and they boarded the same bus as me today. It was really great seeing them, I remembered they are really nice and friendly! Chatted with them about their Os and their future route to take. Seems like they knew what they want and hope they really can do well for Os. =]

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TO isaBELLE (who refuse to put a tagboard on her blog):

OK LA CANNOT TAG DEN I WRITE HERE! Everytime come here and say hi to my blog. MMMM ok la miss u k and u noe i wun go to ur blog and say HELLO de. lol! =)


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So it's slacking time tml again coz it's BCOMM!!!

Heh shall go hunt for some articles for miec and do research for cip le. So hardworking hor? Born in my nature la. Ok better stop before you all throw eggs and rotten veggies at me. Update again coz it's a special day tml! xD

-Start-

It was shopping spree with my beloved buddy yesterday and today.

Project all the way from morning till 5plus. Beata was not with us. Girl take care of ur eyes ah! Finally settle everything and we just need to work on it individually to be able to hand it up next week. Oh we're the 1st group to present. Oh man! Quite pathetic but just get it done and over. (:



Did not go for my cip meeting coz the timing crashed so... Ps to my group members. As for that pbl, just need to do some research on the part I'm in-charge of. Going bonkers sooner or later. 2projects and 2 tutorials on hand. Holidays is only left with 4days, so yeah. 1 assignment each day, so I can complete everything on time. Yeah right. {what my CATS tutor always say} Lol!

Oh ya so I only managed to leave sch ytd at 5plus. Thus we went for night shopping.

Headed to town. Had chicken chop noodles for dinner at Far East, not too bad. Bought 2 tops. =) It was late and we walked behind wheelock to wait for bus. The journey was darn long but we chatted and crapped all the way through. Buddy was like physco-ing me, if she go chinese studies, she wanna me to follow suit. Awww.. I'll never. Reached home only at 11plus near 12. Slept at 2plus 3.

Kinda stunned to know that I woke up at only 1pm today. Hmm then went out to meet buddy and trained to Bugis. Bought accessories like earrings and some bling bling necklaces from Bugis Village. Bought a chocolate fondue puff from beardpapasweets. Nice! Had tissue prata and ching teng at the kopitiam. Trained home. Stupid buddy keep ARch-ed (argue; inside joke)with me about the bling bling J I bought. Saying J stands for Junki -.-'' Haha.

Bought a beany from Mr. Bean. Strongly encourage you guys to purchase it as it's damn cute and at the same time, you can do charity as part of the sum will be donated. =)

Bumped into YuanShan on the way home. And I'm so funny can, mistaken her sis as stranger. Catch up awhile with her, been like so long since we've met. She then specially say BYE to me coz I live 2 blocks away while buddy and her stay same block. Like so pai ci lor. Haha. It's like we'll all be shifting soon, no more 217. ): So many people stay in the same estate. Ys, buddy, xiaoqing, yuhui, yili, meda, fangming, etc.. Awww why must tear down the buildings here. Hmph.

Gotta get myself in the mood to indulge in the projects & tutorials. So so glad that next week is elearning for OB and Stats.

So peeps, enjoy the last few days of your holidays and prepare for school on Monday. Eat more dumplings since it's duan wu jie. And complete all those necessary work, for those in JC, mug hard for your exams hur. =] Hur hur that's all. xD

Already used to it. So whatever then. Let it be. A nobody. Numb*

-End of report-

javin javin javin

): ): ): he was eliminated.

hope he'll be back on the revivals.



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on a sidenote, happy birthday SHERLYN =)


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projects, tutorials not done. SO?


"must do lor.." haha!


u expect a reply like, "hack care la!" quite impossible. lol.


meeting my ob mates to start on our project later (the time now is already 12plus) at 9.30. hopefully can start and finish.


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and yes, i wanna go shopping. :D :D :D

W O O H O O ~

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<5 all who tagged and tried to drag me away from the evil emo devil. feeling much better nowadays. :)

enjoy the last few days of the holidays peeps. still haben meet up elycia. sorry gal, maybe this thurs or fri? and darcie; awww ur mid years start next wk so study hard yeah. :D u're so smart confirm can ace the exams. meet up after ur exams. =]

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Tiring ): ): ):

workworkwork

80bucks for one night shift :) :) :)

Went to jj's church costume party earlier on. The people there are nice and approachable. =) Know quite a few new people from there. And there's this speaker who talk about friendship.

Not everyone around are your real & true friends. How many will really stand by you when you're troubled or in need? I personally feel that the church peeps has really strong bonds, between one another. That's something I envy much. For me, I needed friends who I can confide in, trust and spend time with.


Sad to say, in poly is really so hard to find someone like that. There will be friends, but mostly will turn out to be just hi-bye friends or just classmates. Maybe it's me who's still stuck in the past. Been two months and still I don't find myself adapting to it. Why?

I envy those in jc. (Other than hectic and stressful studies..) The class unity in jc is like damn strong. Perhaps it's me who's turning from an extrovert to an semi-introvert gradually. The LOUD and NOISY xiaowei will soon be gone. I'm just anti-social. Perhaps.

Sometimes I really wonder did I make a wrong decision to have chose Business in poly, deciding my future so fast.



I just wanna scream and get away from all these.

Are you my FRIEND or just-a-friend?
Will you even care?

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Will you all still be there with me 10 or 20 years down the road?




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Thanks gals for being there. :)