HAPPY B'DAY MEIQIN dear :) :)

stay pretty and cheery always <33

I'm seriously tired of putting up a mask everyday.
You wouldn't know how I feel if you're not in my shoes.

Once bitten, twice shy.
I will not want to repeat the same mistake of grouping with someone I know I cannot work with. Period.

My mood seems to be like roller coaster, going up and down.
I think I have a split personality.
Oh well.

I need my buddies~
ARGH!!~ I'm like tied down by projects and stuff (like always) and keep postponing meetup(s)..

1. Huifang
Been 9268299912372 zillion years since I met her [hope she become more gentle, but quite impossible since she's in tkd now xD]

2. Casper aka DARcie
Last meetup was 14Oct, one day before sch starts. Miss her craps and "lameness"~ We're just so so crappy. Crappy buddies..

3. Qiu(s) Hui & Ping
Awwww the last outing was a few weeks back then.. Yeah let's go KBOX~~ Sing to our hearts content.

4. Mei Qin
Though in same school, but as compared to last sem, we seldom meet each other. Haa always say wanna meet up but then I think quite long never go out le. Aha shall go out some day ah!

5. My moron- Siya
Yea now that As is over, hopefully we can meet up someday k. (: My very beloved and retarded alto 2. Lol!

the list go on and on.. Only if I have (365 x 2) days in a year. Yeah IF ONLY.

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The common test schedule as follows;

MAEC
MACROECONOMICS (MAEC) (60 min)
Mon, 10 Dec 07
1:30pm - 2:30pm
Sports Hall


POA
PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNTING (POA)
Tue, 11 Dec 07
11:00am - 12:30pm
LT20 / LT22

BLAW1
BUSINESS LAW YR 1 (BLAW1)
Wed, 12 Dec 07
8:30am - 10:00am
CC Level 1 / 2

At first, I was like cooooooooool~ Then I paused and think for a second or so.
MAEC + POA + BLAW = Shit

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Have not been digesting whatever that is taught in lecture and tutorial. Gotta pull up my socks, hair, whatever that can be pulled to make sure my gpa don't fall below 3.0

Alright! There's presentation tml and I just wan to get it done and over. Oh ya, I think I am super high today (in lib), was like laughing like some madwoman and making the rest laugh also. Ernie's really good at acting, damn hilarious. Warping others is fun (:

WOOhoo. Nights peeps. Don't really know if anyone is reading, but who cares, I update for myself to read de. :D :D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to CHUINSOON aka doraemon.
5years already. Yeah same class all the way up till sec 4 and now same course. Yeah so you gotta spend your b'day in sch till 7 for peer tutoring. Awww will have make-up celebration and belated present for u k. (: (: How about double choco donuts? Lol! Donut freak. So hope you have a super-duper wonderhuuuuu b'day and finally 17 ah! I'm turning 18 in a few mths and you just 17. Ok nvm sweetest and funkiest 17 la. Weeeeeeeee~ HUAT AH!


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I LOVE MR. PIG xD
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS~~~ =]
TAG and I WILL LOVE YOU MORE.
Ok I like going high again so hang on peeps esp those who are damn stressed up like me.

RELAX and tell yourself;
tomorrow will be a better day =)




If you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down.

- Mary Pickford

!#@$%*@#$%

I REALLY HAD ENOUGH OF THIS KINDA ATTITUDE! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! IT'S GOING BEYOND MY LIMITS AND I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I SERIOUSLY DESPISE FREE RIDERS. I DON'T SEE ANY CHANGE AND YOU DON'T SEEM TO BE BOTHERED WITH THE PROJECTS AT ALL.

I don't know how am I going to pull through this tough period. Especially when deadlines draw near, the tutorials left undone, nothing seems to get into my head and worst thing is common tests is coming. Everything is going in the wrong way. Fed up with studies, people and myself. I just can't face you like how I used to. It's very obvious if I don't like someone, I will not bother about you and there will be minimum or rather NO eye contact at all.

I wanna confront you and tell you how we actually feel. Even when you receive negative comments from tutor doesn't seem to help. You're just ike that. What can I do? I feel so helpless. I remember you told me you wanted to change. But is that all just bullshit? I don't trust you anymore.

I really miss last semester's grp mates. All so nice and great partners to work with.

I realised I have been very hot-tempered for this period, ever since sch starts. Even small trival stuffs can also irritate me and trigger my anger.




"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned."


"For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness."

I am losing so much happiness. RAHHHHHHH~ because of you.



Enough of the rantings. I just need a fire extinguisher or something. Must really make full use of the weekend to get things done. Sun Tze, here I come on Sat to finish the pbl and revise poa w hobelle.

ending the post with the peekture of 傻大姐 & me (:

We love to sing at the lib to irritate 老三 ！！！

Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

三个心愿

沁:我喜欢你的眼神温柔又危险
请不要戴上眼镜我会看不见
想要张开双手把你宝贝
想和你天天见面
想带你环游世界

飞:我喜欢你爱逞强苯苯的笑脸
在心中抬头挺胸坚定的信念
这个辽阔世界不够完美
但有了你在我身边什么都很ok

副歌(合唱):第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
第二个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领
哦~~~

沁:为什么为了小事就要掉眼泪
好象有太多的事只能自己背
其实只要你说一句ok
现在就立刻马上变成你的superman

飞:这世上最重要的不止是誓言
只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸
我会永远记得这个今天
还有很久的那一天我也要有你陪

下一个心愿给你最好的自己

Problems.

Yes, problems just keep surfacing one after another. When I just managed to solve one, another pops up. I find it almost impossible to communicate and work efficiently. It's very irritating. Why must there be such people who exist. Free riders. Are you one? Hopefully not. Well is it true that a leopard never changes its spots? It's tiring and really makes one blood boils. Is it so hard to get things done. I don't know. I really wish this semester to end and get off all this shit.

All I see now is deadlines, and just more deadlines.
Presentations. I have no idea how to deal with it.

I hope you really take initiative to do work before you're mark down in the evaluation.
Prove me wrong.

Grouping can really make or break the group.
It depends on all the people you're gonna work with.

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The modules are already very _________ (fill in the blanks) and worst off is that your tutor makes it worst. Schooling use to be so easy and sweet back in secondary sch days. You just need to drag your damn-so-heavy bag to sch and sit through the lessons from morning till mid noon. Who cares about participation in class man. But now, no participation = lower grade. I guess I frown more than I smile now. Maybe what really makes me smile is the silly jokes from silly friends like Isabelle.

Luckily it's Thursday. A day where I ended class QUITE early, 1plus and headed to BT market and had happy duck rice and black white ( a mixture of soyabeanmilk and glass jelly) w ho & belle. I also bought the smooth smooth bean curd home. Just took a short nap. Btw, taking afternoon naps help to reduce the chances of having cancer so if you doze off in class, just tell the teacher you're kia si so you zzz. ._." Wahaha!

No need to chiong any tutorials or pbl. So just relax and sit in for LMS tml. (: It's odd week!!!

Frustration and disappointment are primary emotions before it lead and contributed to ANGER, the secondary.

I guess I need to attend anger management class to calm myself down.
Haha! Actually I'm not so angry afterall. I'm just not happy with that attitude you've shown towards work.

Alright. Teebee and it's time for bed. =D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SIYA!!! sweetest18!~ my beloved "moron"
& yes we'll meet up very soon after ur bigAs.
-ur monster

Pleasure is not happiness.
It has no more importance than a shadow following a man.
- Muhammad Ali

Yeah the weekend comes and goes so swiftly that I feel like weekend = weekend.

To SHUNA;

生日快乐，
福如东海 寿比南山！：）

Sweetest 17 yeah~~

I start to feel the rush of sem 2. Seriously I think I will soon have the i-really-hate-sch syndrome. It's like work piling on top on (still) WORK. When can I ever finish them? End of the week/ month? (Yeah right!) Nothing seems to be right. Some modules are driving me crazy. POA, BLAW, BCA.. I hate excel, i hate POA, i hate everything else.

On top of that, groupings also can make me go MAD, real madness. I really dislike that kinda of attitude I get from that particular person. I don't think any of my other friends deserve that kinda attitude also. Sometimes I wish there's no need for groupings and this kinda of crap won't happen. I don't really care if you read or know about this. RAHH! And in the whole 17years of my life, I have never met someone like this before. It just makes my blood boil again thinking back of that day's tutorial.

Alright I'm just releasing my ANGER instead of kicking a big fuss with the other party. I must learn how to be "nice" even though I am very reluctant. Sheesh. Often people have to put on a masquerade, I am just one of those. Somehow I really envy those who can really have zero hatred in them and treat everybody equally nice. No discrimination, nothing.

Note to self;
BCA e-learning work & PBL
POA/BMGT/BLAW/MAEC tutorial(S)
LMS blog entry on self-awareness & self-esteem

-Loads of work to be completed.
Buried under the whole chunk of work-