Emotions over me

"Emotions are just way too difficult to handle. Mood has been like a roller coaster; high and low. I never know how to manage and control my heart. The mind says one thing but the heart is reacting in another way. You know what is right but always ended up doing the wrong thing. It seems so tough to do whatever is right. Emotions overwhelmed and took control. I am just so pissed and angry at myself. The facade behind the smiles and laughter. Sometimes it is so hard to hide. Let the summer rain fall.

I am not ok, a common reply most will say. However deep down, I know I'm not. Somehow I know I will have to get out of these crap thinkings fast and put it to a halt.

Everything got better on a bus ride back home, the beauty and elegance of the magnolia white clouds cheer me up a little."

X


Everything will be alright!



听完你说goodbye之后
我自己掉眼泪自己那么用心
那么投入到底为了谁
你总是说不必太过太过在乎谁
这样只会令自己越来越累

每天醒来 我都告诉自己要少爱你一点
好让离开那天 自己可以好过一点
可是一天不见 我就在夜里梦见你好几遍
醒来的时候才发现 你已不在身边

每一个女孩都期待
能拥有爱 能够被人爱 不受伤害
我对你的爱 我不明白何时变成了依赖

每一个女孩都期待
能拥有爱 never say goodbye 不要再分开
i'll never make you cry i'll treat you right
feel the love close your eyes
想让你明白 对你的爱就像深深...大海

Images of you just kept flashing across the mind.

Like a roller coaster, up and down

Emotions have been like rollar coaster for this week, going up and down. Guess I'm really tired and stressed up by the deadlines. Deadlines made me feel so dead. It will all come to an end real soon, really looking forward to the end. =O


Exams in just round the corner, the first paper will be 2days after my b'day ): What a gift from the school hur.. Haha! Mugging during CNY? No idea. I hope not. =/ There's still econs test2 on this coming Monday. *Pulls hair*


Celebrated Isabelle's bday ytd at pizzahut.
Happy b'day yeah! Finally legal 18 le, wish u stay cheery n pretty always.
& grow talltall like giraffe (:


Dragged myself to school. That Peiyi sms me and lied that the teacher is very angry because lil ppl turn up for IAC. I really believed! Grrrr.. After class, headed to Jap Village w Peiyi. Eat eat eat. Drink drink drink green tea. The food was not bad. Chatted n crapped alot. (:

Day out with DARcie as usual ever crappy and fun.

Durian puffs :D
Bodyshop (:
Starhub vouchers (:
Randomness.

Oh yeah, many complained that my blog loads very slowly? Is that true? Haha! I will change the blogskin to a more simple one when I have time. =) I also can't see my tagboard. I think I will switch back to cbox. Time for a revamp! Thats all folks. Takecare and enjoy the weekends!

You will never get to the end of the journey
if you stop to shy a stone at every dog that barks.

Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

"Valentine"
(Martina Mcbride feat. Jim Brickman)

if there were no words
no way to speak
i would still hear you
if there were no tears
no way to feel inside
i'd still feel for you

and even if the sun refused to shine
even if romance ran out of rhyme
you would still have my heart until the end of time
you're all i need, my love, my Valentine.

all of my life
i have been waiting for
all you give to me
you've opened my eyes
and shown me how to love unselfishly

i've dreamed of this a thousand times before
in my dreams i couldn't love you more
i will give you my heart
until the end of time
you're all i need, my love, my Valentine

and even if the sun refused to shine
even if romance ran out of rhyme
you would still have my heart until the end of time
'cause all i need is you, my Valentine
you're all i need, my love, my Valentine

* * *

Thanks SiTing for the song! It's really nice.

Finally, all the projects & presentations ended. Racing against time to meet the deadlines is definitely no fun. Burning midnight oil and having to wake at 6plus the next day is torturous.Dozing off during bus rides to and fro. Now that it's all over, the next BIG thing coming up will the exams scheduled on 21st to 24th August. I've started my revision on stats and maybe shall revise econs later. Be motivated yeah! Ace all the modules~

Tutorials and lecture for some modules have ended this week. Great! It means I can be home earlier for some days. Sheesh I have pon a particular lecture for twice. But ain't feeling guilty at all. =p

My mood has been like a roller coaster. I think I need to really relax and stop giving myself unnecessary stress. I've sort out my thinkings during bus rides. Yeah brave through all the storms and it makes a better me. =) I'll not be affected by anything anymore. Aquarius are real sensitive people even over trival stuffs. I shall try kill away the over- sensitiveness in me. Kill the sensitive emo monster.

Cha cha & Jive assessment next week. We still suck at the last part of chacha. =x
No sch on Fri. :)

Looking forward to the 7weeks of holidays.

Happy (belated) b'day to all July babies. =3