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I REALLY HAD ENOUGH OF THIS KINDA ATTITUDE! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! IT'S GOING BEYOND MY LIMITS AND I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I SERIOUSLY DESPISE FREE RIDERS. I DON'T SEE ANY CHANGE AND YOU DON'T SEEM TO BE BOTHERED WITH THE PROJECTS AT ALL.

I don't know how am I going to pull through this tough period. Especially when deadlines draw near, the tutorials left undone, nothing seems to get into my head and worst thing is common tests is coming. Everything is going in the wrong way. Fed up with studies, people and myself. I just can't face you like how I used to. It's very obvious if I don't like someone, I will not bother about you and there will be minimum or rather NO eye contact at all.

I wanna confront you and tell you how we actually feel. Even when you receive negative comments from tutor doesn't seem to help. You're just ike that. What can I do? I feel so helpless. I remember you told me you wanted to change. But is that all just bullshit? I don't trust you anymore.

I really miss last semester's grp mates. All so nice and great partners to work with.

I realised I have been very hot-tempered for this period, ever since sch starts. Even small trival stuffs can also irritate me and trigger my anger.




"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned."


"For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness."

I am losing so much happiness. RAHHHHHHH~ because of you.



Enough of the rantings. I just need a fire extinguisher or something. Must really make full use of the weekend to get things done. Sun Tze, here I come on Sat to finish the pbl and revise poa w hobelle.

ending the post with the peekture of 傻大姐 & me (:

We love to sing at the lib to irritate 老三 ！！！

Problems.

Yes, problems just keep surfacing one after another. When I just managed to solve one, another pops up. I find it almost impossible to communicate and work efficiently. It's very irritating. Why must there be such people who exist. Free riders. Are you one? Hopefully not. Well is it true that a leopard never changes its spots? It's tiring and really makes one blood boils. Is it so hard to get things done. I don't know. I really wish this semester to end and get off all this shit.

All I see now is deadlines, and just more deadlines.
Presentations. I have no idea how to deal with it.

I hope you really take initiative to do work before you're mark down in the evaluation.
Prove me wrong.

Grouping can really make or break the group.
It depends on all the people you're gonna work with.

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The modules are already very _________ (fill in the blanks) and worst off is that your tutor makes it worst. Schooling use to be so easy and sweet back in secondary sch days. You just need to drag your damn-so-heavy bag to sch and sit through the lessons from morning till mid noon. Who cares about participation in class man. But now, no participation = lower grade. I guess I frown more than I smile now. Maybe what really makes me smile is the silly jokes from silly friends like Isabelle.

Luckily it's Thursday. A day where I ended class QUITE early, 1plus and headed to BT market and had happy duck rice and black white ( a mixture of soyabeanmilk and glass jelly) w ho & belle. I also bought the smooth smooth bean curd home. Just took a short nap. Btw, taking afternoon naps help to reduce the chances of having cancer so if you doze off in class, just tell the teacher you're kia si so you zzz. ._." Wahaha!

No need to chiong any tutorials or pbl. So just relax and sit in for LMS tml. (: It's odd week!!!

Frustration and disappointment are primary emotions before it lead and contributed to ANGER, the secondary.

I guess I need to attend anger management class to calm myself down.
Haha! Actually I'm not so angry afterall. I'm just not happy with that attitude you've shown towards work.

Alright. Teebee and it's time for bed. =D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SIYA!!! sweetest18!~ my beloved "moron"
& yes we'll meet up very soon after ur bigAs.
-ur monster

Pleasure is not happiness.
It has no more importance than a shadow following a man.
- Muhammad Ali

Yeah the weekend comes and goes so swiftly that I feel like weekend = weekend.

To SHUNA;

生日快乐，
福如东海 寿比南山！：）

Sweetest 17 yeah~~

I start to feel the rush of sem 2. Seriously I think I will soon have the i-really-hate-sch syndrome. It's like work piling on top on (still) WORK. When can I ever finish them? End of the week/ month? (Yeah right!) Nothing seems to be right. Some modules are driving me crazy. POA, BLAW, BCA.. I hate excel, i hate POA, i hate everything else.

On top of that, groupings also can make me go MAD, real madness. I really dislike that kinda of attitude I get from that particular person. I don't think any of my other friends deserve that kinda attitude also. Sometimes I wish there's no need for groupings and this kinda of crap won't happen. I don't really care if you read or know about this. RAHH! And in the whole 17years of my life, I have never met someone like this before. It just makes my blood boil again thinking back of that day's tutorial.

Alright I'm just releasing my ANGER instead of kicking a big fuss with the other party. I must learn how to be "nice" even though I am very reluctant. Sheesh. Often people have to put on a masquerade, I am just one of those. Somehow I really envy those who can really have zero hatred in them and treat everybody equally nice. No discrimination, nothing.

Note to self;
BCA e-learning work & PBL
POA/BMGT/BLAW/MAEC tutorial(S)
LMS blog entry on self-awareness & self-esteem

-Loads of work to be completed.
Buried under the whole chunk of work-